Yesterday I was at our local daycare center because my grandmother had to get something done, so she asked me to take care of my brother at school. Most of the people there are middle aged moms, aunts and I guess nannies. Now their conversations go around soap operas, whose husband is cheating on whom, Ian Venaracion and you know just general ” mom bants” . Now, I knew that because I observed them for 3 days already and I kid you not, it’s just cancerous gossip! (though I dont think most moms are like that). Since I couldnt relate to most of them, I bring novels but I do join in occasionally. Then yesterday they started talking about healthy snacks for their children and somehow it got to one of them saying “Sa tingin ko mani ay masustansyang ibigay at di bagat nuts yun?/I think peanuts are a healthier choice because they are classified as nuts?”, then I said “Actually po tita, hindi po talaga classified as “nut” ang mani, legumes po talaga sila/Actually they arent really classified as “nut” they are actually classified as legumes”, and then they looked at each other and I swear to god I regretted ever having knowledge of that and for opening my mouth,because she said “EDI WOW IKAW NA MATALINO HA-HA-HA/THEN WOW! ARENT YOU A SMART ONE? HA-HA-HA” and they laughed in unison. I know it was sarcasm and I blushed, but what am I supposed to do? I couldnt scream “WELL IT’S NOT MY FAULT THAT YOU OLD TIMERS DIDNT KNOW THAT, BE GRATEFUL I EDUCATED YOU” because that would be against my values (I am a Filipino, we dont talk back to older people especially “Aunties“, well I dont), so I just smiled at them and buried myself in my book again. And all the while I just thought to myself “I cant wait to get home, lock myself in my room and listen to music, I freakin hate people”.
That isnt the first time I experienced that, there was that time with my mom, my aunt, even my freaking brother and friends. And I think the reason why they think it’s alright is because a comedian here in our country does this on a regular basis, on national TV! and because of that it’s suddenly “okay” to berate/mock people like me who knows more than them because it’s apparently “funny”. Now I am not saying that I am a genius, and I know what you’re thinking maybe you correct them all the time like an asshole, well no. I just couldnt help giving trivias about stuff that I know about, mostly those that I find fascinating. Like members of a band, hermaphrodite species and so on….I dont correct people all the time like a fucking grammar nazi on facebook who floods your comment section with “*you’re” whenever you make a mistake, or a freaking typo. I only say lengthy speeches whenever you ask me for my point of view/opinion on something, if you are being stupid on social media and you had been for a while, or I am drunk. I hate it whenever I am explaining something to someone, like to my bestfriend and she’d mock the way I speak by making these noises with her mouth and puckering her lips and shit like that, it’s not like I’m saying something trashy like goddamn gossip and shit like soap operas and local loveteams.
The response I absolutely despise other than the bloody “K” is “EDI WOW/THEN WOW” I know it doesnt make sense when translated in English, but it is a typical moronic response here in our country when a person doesnt know what to respond to your often logical and factual argument. I fucking hate it, excuse me but a thousand people died for our freedom of Speech/expression for you to fucking respond like that. Stop making me feel like a fucking weirdo for being smart, you’re basically bullying me. People often ask me why I am so quiet, why I dont speak sometimes, it’s because if I do and say something clever or a trivia/factoid (I dont know why I am like this too, I dont know why I know so much shit about something and why I love sharing them) you’d mock/heckle me. And then I’d have to feel bad about the way I am and I’d feel like shit. Maybe if that celebrity would stop glamorizing it, maybe people will calm down and actually try and engage in a meaningful conversation with me.
I’m sorry if this came off as narcissistic or boastful, that isnt my intention. I just wanted to share what I feel because if I dont then it will bother me for a long time hhahaha.