Hey I think I had shook off the writer’s block that I had been experiencing. My healthy lifestyle or should I say “Project getting rid of baby fats” is going great, I havent weighed myself but I think I have lost a couple of pounds because most of my old pants fit me again, so hooray for that. I am still struggling with the diet though but I am pulling through, I allow myself to eat chips on saturdays though, it is my cheat day. I have set my goal for this school year too, I have decided to work hard to become a Dean’s Lister again, I will avoid being a slacker and a happy go lucky student this time. I will still allow myself to have fun though, just not too much to the extent that I dont review for exams just to get drunk, no not anymore. This is senior year college and I will be serious with my studies again, I have to redeem myself because I am starting to feel that I am not as smart as I used to be, I want to prove myself wrong, that I still have that level of intelligence. And I want to make my family proud again, although I know that graduating with a degree will already make them proud, I still want them to see me bring home medals like I used to in Grade school and high school.
I wont let anyone distract and discourage me anymore, I will be unstoppable and I will achieve my goal. I am working on making myself better, and stronger because that’s what I am (or what I used to be). I refuse to put my happiness on someone again, if he wants to leave then leave, I dont have time to beg for love, I can love myself and I have worked so hard to get my self worth to this level, I wont let another man lessen it again, no not this time.
This school year will be different from the last three, because this year they will see my full potential, and I will unleash it too. I will show them what I am capable of, that I am a force to be reckoned with, I am not just another pretty face I have much more to offer. I will reinvent myself like I did in freshman year highschool and I will make people swoon over the fact that I am this serious about my studies and in pursuing my goals. Mark my words, this will be my time I will conquer the spot light once again, and I will crush anyone who will get in my way.